Friday, December 30, 2011

Confession Friday

I know I've been a bit of an absent blogger lately but I figured since it's the last Friday of the year I should do a confession friday :)

I confess that I have the biggest love/hate relationship with my job. I work in a restaurant and for the most part everyone there is awesome and I love it...however, the downsides are huge. As a host, I feel like no matter what I do someone is ticked off. Either customers are yelling and demanding certain things or servers are yelling about not being sat/being sat/still being there/whatever. There's one server in particular that came up last night dropping f-bombs because we were saving her bigger table for a party of 8 that was coming in. I'm sick of being everyone's stress relief through them yelling at me. It's just so disrespectful.

I confess that after all the yelling and demands of last night I came home, took a bubble bath while ranting to Jake, watched How I Met Your Mother, and ate half of a medium thin crust pepperoni and bacon pizza. It was delightful.

I confess that having free unlimited soda at work is affecting how my body looks already. We don't do scales in this house but I can see the extra pudge on my stomach and it's gotta go. Water with lemon only from now on!

I confess that I'm laying under the covers in our guest bedroom right now and Nigel is curled up under them with me. I love lazy winter break days :)

I confess that Jake and I are worse than little kids when it comes to Christmas. One of us would wrap a present for the other person while they were gone and once the recipient of the present saw it they would immediately ask "Can I open it now?" Needless to say, none of our presents made it until Christmas day.

I confess that I have been blessed beyond belief with the family that I have, whether it's immediate, in-laws, or extended family. SO blessed. And so glad we got to do 4 Christmases in 2 days :)

I confess that I haven't bitten my nails in probably the longest time I've ever gone and they're super long. Kind of annoying really. Especially when typing.....

I confess that I'm reading Heaven is for Real right now and I'm still kind of skeptical as to how legit it all is but it's making me so excited for heaven :) I want to believe it's real but I also don't want to take it all as truth and end up believing something that is false....but either way I cannot wait until the day when I am there. It's going to be so great :)

Any end of the year confessions from you all?!

Monday, December 5, 2011

Weekend Wrap-Up

So finally a Monday where I have something to blog about! Well at least Saturday morning and most of Sunday.

Friday - School. Work. Boring.

Saturday - We went to a tree farm and got our tree! 6.5 feet tall! It was a little chilly and Jake had to work by noon so we kind of rushed through it. But it was still fun. They had horses pulling wagons to take people out to the farms and back which I loved! Then I worked Saturday a little excitement but not a whole lot.

Sunday - Church. Whitney and her parents were gracious enough to open their home to the masses of college students and feed them afterwards. Jake and I made the mistake of heading to Target on our way out where we got some lotion (hello chapped hands! Another reason to dislike winter) and of course I had to get a coffee from Starbucks :) Well by the time we got to Whitney's, we were scraping the edges out of the chicken pot pie pans....haha. 2 9x13s of green beans, 3 9x13s of chicken pot pie, and a crock pot of soup all gone by the time we got there. But Whitney's dad went and got pizza. Jake and I were very thankful for their family that afternoon :) After hanging out with some friends and getting some lunch, we came back to our apartment and decorated the tree!
Nigel was obviously a big help

All decorated!

Family photo :) and Nigel's crazy eyes.

It makes me so happy to come home and see the tree! Although, our floor needs vacuumed something fierce. Which will be what I do when I get off of here. Anyway, then we headed over to Nick and Angie's apartment to decorate gingerbread (graham cracker) houses with them, Joel, and Amy! We stayed there all night decorating, playing games, chatting, was a lot of fun :) I love having couple friends to hang out with!

Our house!

Hard at work decorating :)

Their masterpiece :)

All in all, it was a successful weekend. Only one more left of the semester! Then things will die down around here a lot :( I am looking forward to a break though!

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

The Great Tree Debate

Ok so I have 4 minutes until I need to leave for class....buuuuut seeing everyone putting up Christmas trees has got me thinking about Jake and I's great tree debate.

See, my family always had a fake tree that we put up together, while Jake's family always went and cut down a tree together.  So last year Jake and I went halfway and got a tree that had already been cut down.  It was a Charlie Brown tree if I've ever seen one. But we were poor married college students so the tree seemed appropriate.  It felt more Christmas-y to have a real tree and I love having the pine smell but it's so much more work! And the pine needles all over...goodness. Plus Nigel knocked it over once or twice so that didn't help the mess.

See what I mean? Puny little thing.

So what do you guys prefer? Real or fake? I love Christmas and everything about it. Every year I want to do more traditions and drink more hot chocolate and eat more candy canes and watch more Christmas get the idea. But this is one tradition that I don't know if we'll ever fully agree on! So I need a tally...are there more real or fake trees out there?!

Monday, November 28, 2011

Running, Winter, and Random Thoughts

So this is going to be a completely random post. Sorry. Last night, I was reminiscing about a lot of childhood memories, like my cousins teaching me how to ride a bike, going on fly hunts with my dad and sister, reading books with my mom, etc. and then I started going through my Christmas ornaments. Which led to me tearing apart my room to find old journals and things that I've forgotten about. I'm so nostalgic, it's ridiculous. And as I was going through this stuff I realized I'm missing a journal that we had to keep in my freshman year English class, which makes me sad because I feel like I've lost a lot of memories.  So I guess that made me feel guilty about not blogging as much and keeping my thoughts in a more permanent place than my head...all I can say is I hope my children as nostalgic reminiscers, too, because they're going to hate me if they aren't.

Random thought number 1: I have a giant love/hate relationship with running. I had to run a mile this morning for one of my classes to see if our time improved throughout the semester. I dreaded it. Some days running feels SO good and other days I'm pretty sure I'm dying. Today was a good day, thankfully. I dropped a minute and 43 seconds off my time throughout the semester which is pretty awesome considering I only ran 3 times in between. But I realized that running is the only thing that can make me feel good about myself while feeling so physically horrible.  I got done running and my legs felt fine and my breathing was fairly under control but my throat was SO dry and it felt like all the blood was pumping into my head and my fingers were all tingly. My stomach muscles felt like they were going to involuntarily contract and make me vomit even though I didn't feel nauseous. Gross. But running just makes you feel so good...especially when you drop time. It's weird.

Random thought number 2: Another love/hate relationship: WINTER. Today's weather was straight up NASTY. We've had rain, snow, and ice show up today. Sick. But I spent the evening inside with a blanket, my husband, hot chocolate topped with peppermint whipped cream, and some Christmas music. You can't spend an evening like that in just doesn't feel the same. So as much as I despise cold weather, it lets me have amazing nights like tonight. If only I never had to go out in the cold and snow.....

Random thought number 3: I'm really really ready for school to be done but I'm also really nervous about it. We have no idea where we're going, what we're going to do, if grad school is in the picture or not, when kids will enter the get the idea.  We are trying to follow God's plan for us and go where He's leading us but it's so hard to tell sometimes what's His plan and what's our own selfish plan. I just want a set path like in the board game Life. That'd be ok with me :) Plus I love that game.

Random thought number 4: Now that it's cold, our kitty is so much more cuddly.  He's been following me around the apartment all day just wanting to curl up with me under a blanket. So cute :)

Random thought number 5: Jake just put cinnamon rolls in the oven...and they smell delish. We're now debating what the best smells are that come from the kitchen. He says cinnamon rolls are in the top 5. I'm unsure about that.

That's all for now I guess. I'm ready for Christmas break to be here for surrrrrre.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Confession Friday

Long time, no blogging. I just have NOTHING interesting to blog about. But I figure I should try to keep up with this every once in a while.  So...the best I got is a confession friday.

I confess that I love the show New Girl. I laugh about every 30 seconds...although that may not be because it's funny. Apparently I laugh a lot.

I confess that I really just want to spend a day watching the Disney Princess classics. However, I have none. Boo :( Youtube time perhaps.

I confess that watching the leaves fall made me so happy the other day.  I was driving to class and there was a downpour of brown, yellow, orange, and red leaves all around my car in the middle of the road. I was in love.

I confess that I'm getting to be rather apathetic about school. Senioritis needs to go away for a few more months. It seems a little unacceptable this early on.

I confess that there are SIX couples in our sunday school class that are expecting. Jake and I are one of like three or four couples who do not have children and/or who are not expecting.'s making the baby fever come back in full swing. I just want a little warm baby to cuddle with :( that's too much to ask for I guess.

I confess that I've been craving gummy worms, suckers, gobstoppers, etc. a lot lately. And pizza. And fast food. Ughhhh. I'm avoiding lunch right now because I know my only options are a sandwich or leftover chili. Boo.  I'm really craving some taco bell or something.

I confess that Jake works a lot this weekend and my plans consist of a bunch of nothingness.  Which is kind of nice every once in awhile.

Ok my back hurts and my tummy is grumbling. Time to go scrounge I guess.

Monday, October 17, 2011

Highlights and Downsides

So...long time, no blog huh? It's been like a month...I honestly don't know if I can remember much of what happened in the past week let alone the last month but I'll try to wrap it up real quick.


- Going home 2 weekends in a row :)

- Angie's bridal shower

- Finding a place in town to get my hair cut so I can actually go get it trimmed when I'm supposed to instead of trying to squeeze in appointments when I'm home

- Angie came over and dyed my hair a few nights ago :) I love it

- Going home and getting cheesecake, pumpkin pie, pecan pie, green bean casserole, potato casserole, turkey, tons of leftovers to bring home. Jake and I have the best moms ever :) we so spoiled!

- Jake made a funny face one night while we were home and Pam (MIL) and I both said "What is your problem?" at the same time in the same tone of voice. This may be a downside to some of you but we all thought it was hilarious. Love my MIL :)

- Seeing how big Luna has gotten...and the fact that her favorite toy is a rock that she chews on. Luna is a dog...not a child...just to clarify.

- Seeing family!! I've missed them all so much.

- Going apple picking, getting pumpkins, and frozen custard. It was beautiful weather, too. Good memories were made :) and I'm making an apple crisp....or 7....sometime soon. We have apples galore.

- Jake and I may finally have some kind of plan for what we're doing once we graduate. I still pray about it a LOT but unless the Lord shuts those doors I think we know what we're going to do.  More on that when we have some finalized plans...they may shock all of you. And I'm not ready to deal with everyone's questioning and criticism again so...there.

- I got to take a super long way home a few weekends ago and I drove through my home town and past my 2 childhood houses.  Good memories but the changes I saw in both places always unsettles me. But then I realized how amazing it is that God is always the same and never changing. So comforting!


- When I go home I get zero homework done which leads to me being you can see I'm ignoring it all by blogging.

- Two of my classes next semester are at the same time and I need them both to graduate. I have one semester left....let me get out unscathed pleaseeeee.

- We aren't going home again until Thanksgiving :(

- My plans for after graduation may very well involve 2-4 more years of schooling....and I thought I was done :( Maybe I secretly enjoy school and being a student....then again...maybe not.

- I got really lightheaded this morning in aerobics and my heart was racing so she made me walk around the room while everyone else did circuit training until my pulse went back down to normal. Talk about embarrassing. I skipped my next class and just went home to start in on the homework.

- I have laundry to fold....which means I really need to get off here. Yay for having more highlights than downsides :)

Friday, September 9, 2011

Confession Friday

I have no lead up to this we'll just get to it. Haha.

I confess that I'm so sore. I had an aerobics class Wednesday morning and we did circuit training. I'm pretty sure she's trying to kill us. My abs and butt hurt so bad that I had to roll out of bed this morning (which still hurt) and I walk like I have a stick stuck up my butt because I can't walk normally. Ughhh.

I confess that my itunes is playing Third Day music and it's making me happy :)

I confess that I just looked over at Nigel absolutely passed out next to me on the couch and got a little jealous. Jake and I were talking the other night about how he has no worries, bills, or problems and the only thing that really sucked for him was no pizza in his diet.

I confess that I declared a 3-day weekend for myself. Having only one class on Fridays is already starting to be problematic.  When the time it takes me to drive there and back is almost as long as the class time itself, I'm not real motivated :/

I confess that I ate chips and salsa for dinner last night and then watched An Affair to Remember (add it to my list of favorite old movies!) while eating ice cream. In sweat pants. Typical girl move? Yes.

I confess that we've been able to have our windows and patio door open since Sunday and I'm LOVING it. I'm kind of cold right now which is amazing considering a week ago it was like 1249083409 degrees outside.

I confess that I already have like 6 baby names picked out. They change a little bit every once in a while but I'm sticking to them for the most we just need to get this school thing out of the way and find jobs so that there can be babies to name!

I confess that I made Jake another batch of rolo cookies Wednesday night at his request because of his bad day at work....and they are almost gone. Once Hanna gets here tonight (she's staying for the weekend!) I know they'll be gone for sure.

I confess that I need to vacuum the guest bedroom, read a little bit of homework, and work on my resource binder but instead I have 3 facebook tabs open and I'm blogging. Ohhhhhh the life of a college student.

Leave some of your confessions! Then I can read them and procrastinate some more!

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Thankful Thursday

It's been a rough stretch lately and I've been super side-tracked and probably a big old it's time for one of these posts to remind me of how good I have it!

I'm thankful for my amazing, hard-working husband.  He is seriously just about the only person who keeps me sane some days.  He is so understanding and compassionate and I don't know how or why I got to be blessed with him as my husband.  All women should wait for a man like him :) I may be just a little biased but he really is the greatest.

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time He may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on Him, because He cares for you." - 1 Peter 5:6&7  - I'm so thankful for these verses. It's been a rough few weeks with Jake's new job and things are getting pretty tight around here but the Lord is such a great comforter.  Cast all my anxieties on Him because He cares for me is a phrase that has been running through my head quite a bit lately.  God is the ultimate provider and I know He will provide us with our needs. It's such a blessing to not have to worry about how we're going to pay bills or this or that when money gets tight because He has always come through in the past and He is faithful!

I'm thankful for my classes and the ability to further my education.  One of my classes is spending about 7 hours a week at an adult center for adults with developmental disabilities.  They are honestly some of the sweetest people I've ever met and I'm thankful God has put them in my life. They teach me so much about so many things.  I get several hugs a day with people telling me "I like you!" or "You're my buddy/friend!" or "I like your shirt/hair/rings/etc." It's so amazing. They have so much love to give :)

I'm thankful for having those friends that you know you can talk to about anything and their view of you won't change and they won't go blab it to anyone else.  The older I get, the more I realize what a blessing it is to have just one person like that in your life.  It's such a good feeling to know that no matter what, that person is ALWAYS going to be in your life!

I'm thankful for my family and my in-laws :) They are such a supportive group of people and I know they'll always be there for Jake and I.

I'm also thankful that we have food! Because I'm hungry! Lunch time for me :)

Friday, September 2, 2011

Confession Friday

I confess that this week went by quickly and slowly all at the same time...and I feel like it was jam-packed full of stuff but I can't honestly remember a single thing I did. Besides Jake and I going over to Eric and Hannah's apartment to eat ice cream with them :)

I confess that I was happier than I've been in a long time just sitting with my husband, my best friend, and her husband at their apartment eating DQ. Just catching up on life. I love the fact that Hannah and I can catch up and rant while Jake and Eric play words with friends and have absurd conversations broken up by the fact that they're too distracted by the tv to have a fluid conversation. I will never understand how males function. But it makes me so happy to have "couple friends", especially since Jake and Eric are good friends on their own and Hannah and I are like the exact same person and bestest friends on our own :) It's so nice to all be good friends individually and as a couple. This probably makes no sense....I'm rambling.

I confess that I'm working my way through all the music on my itunes alphabetically by artist because I'm OCD and I got to The Spill Canvas the other day and remembered just how much I love that band. I love rediscovering my favorite music.

I confess that I think my husband is the absolute best husband ever and I can't wait to have children with him so he can be the absolute best father to them. He really is the greatest.

I confess this week has been an emotional one.  Boo.  It's so frustrating to wish you could go back and erase something completely from your life but then realize if you did that you wouldn't be where you are now. Gotta take the good with the bad I suppose. And God obviously had a purpose for it all...I just wish things could've turned out this way without all the hurt and complications.

I confess that the baby fever I blogged about a while ago (I think...maybe that's in my imagination) has NOT gone away.  I feel like everywhere I turn someone has kids, just had a baby, or just found out their pregnant. I want it to be my turrrrrrrrn! The Lord is teaching me patience lately...that's for sure.

I confess that I feel like it's the sweetest thing ever when Nigel(our cat) decides to be affectionate. Every day when I walk through the door he's waiting right in front of it so it's hard for me to even get in the door around him. He instantly is purring and just wants to be loved on. He also likes to cuddle up with me under the blankets when the AC turns on...because the air blows out at like 50 degrees and we freeze. He's the most affectionate cat I've ever met and I'm glad he's ours.

I confess that last confession is the reason I need children.  That kind of love for a child is normal...for a is creepy. Ughhhhhh.

I confess I was an unhappy little lady when the maintenance man for our apartment complex pounded on our door at 7:30 this morning to change the AC filter.  Jake and I were finally getting to sleep in (until 8:30....woohoo!) today and he ruined it. All for a 5 second change....7:30am seems a BIT absurd dude. Thanks for waking us up.  Jake fell back asleep almost instantly and I eventually did around the time his alarm should have been going off.  It never went off so we woke up at 9:05...good thing it was just set so Jake could work out and not for going to class or work or something!

I confess I can't handle this heat.  I have a nice 4-day weekend (score!) and it would be a really good time to go run errands or something but I do NOT want to leave my cool-ish apartment to face the sweltering heat. Yuck.

I confess that I'm way procrastinating on the homework that I need to get done today. I want it out of the way but I know it's at least 2 hours of work that I don't really want to do right now...buhhh.

Any confessions from you guys? Have a great long weekend!

Thursday, August 25, 2011

School Blues

Ok so it's not really that bad...I just couldn't think of a title for this post.  I figured I should post some kind of school update since I'm such a boring blogger lately and school is about the only thing interesting that I have going right now...besides Nigel bahaha.

I'm taking 13 hours this semester consisting of aerobics, adult life skills, a practicum at an adult day care for adults with developmental disabilities, family and community resource class, and child welfare.  Surprisingly, aerobics is going to be the hardest from what I've heard/experienced.  I usually do not sweat except for my armpits...I've never been a face, leg, chest, back sweater.  Yesterday in aerobics we were just doing some testing to see where we were at so that she can grade us on improvement. Holy. Cow. Between that class and then hiking for 10 minutes all around campus in the ridiculous heat and up 4 flights of stairs, it's needless to say I was dripping by my next class. Ewww.  Fortunately, it wasn't stinky sweat...from what I could tell at least...too much info?  I'm looking forward to getting in shape for the first time since high school, though!  Yesterday, I also went to an abs and butt class and the yoga group fitness classes at the rec.  Jake met up with me after those classes and we ran half a mile.  I'm trying to get up to jogging a mile without stopping before we have to do it in aerobics on Monday....we'll see....

My other classes don't seem terrible.  The community resources class is going to be a LOT of work.  We have to do all these different assignments finding types of community resources and then by the end of semester we have to turn in a binder with 200 different agencies that could be resources for our clients when we graduate. Buhhhh.

I also have child welfare with a teacher I had last semester and I'm dreading it.  She doesn't allow excused all. And I'm just leaving it there.  I just typed out a whole rant and then deleted it...not worth getting all worked up over again.  Basically I spent all night in the ER and had a note from a doctor saying do NOT go to class or work for 2 days and she still wouldn't let me make up anything.  She told us even if our grandma dies or we're in the hospital, we can't make up anything we miss.  So I'm kind of dreading having her once a week for a 3 hour long class.  If I miss one day, I miss an entire week's worth of stuff...hope I don't get sick at all....

Between classes, homework, working out, and trying to stay on top of keeping this apartment clean, it's going to be a busy semester.  Busy is good makes it go by more quickly.  9 months from now I'll be a graduate for all of about 2 weeks! Eeeeep!

Friday, August 12, 2011

Confession Friday

I confess, once again, that I feel like I have nothing to blog about.  I also just typed worry about instead of blog about. If only that were true...there's plenty of things to worry about :/

I confess the only time I left the apartment this week was church, lunch after church, grocery shopping, and going to Wal-Mart last night to get Jake oreos...which turned out to be good because we ran into Eric and Hannah and went to get ice cream with them :) Yay for best friends :) But that doesn't change the fact that I'm a loser with NOTHING to do until school starts.

I confess that our guest bedroom is FINALLY (almost) completely only took almost 5 months.  I just got so frustrated the other day and it stressed me out too much to even go in there because boxes and crap were EVERYWHERE so my amazing husband went through most of the boxes and got rid of a ton of stuff. He's so great :) I sat there and tested a bag of writing utensils to see if they still  He did find one of my favorite stuffed animals that he made me at build-a-bear :) and my hair straightener, bronzer, bobby pins, and some eye shadow.  I was a very happy camper :)

I confess that any cooking skill I had before this summer went out the door when I stopped cooking for 3 months.  There were tears last night...which has not happened since the very first night I cooked dinner for us....over a year ago.  It was awful.  This morning I put dinner for tonight in the crockpot and it was another near meltdown.  It better be dang good is all I have to say or I may give up.  I need enough money to hire a chef......

I confess that Jake and I want 4-6 kids and that stresses me out just thinking about it.  I love children and as soon as we have them I plan on being a stay-at-home mom as long as it's financially doable but cooking for that many people, especially when our kids are teenagers, stresses me out.  Is it normal to stress out about stuff so very far in the future? Ughhhhhh.

I confess that I'm excited/nervous/worried about the fact that a year from now Jake and I could be potentially buying a house who knows where?!  Crazy, right?  For the first time in a long time, I have no idea where we'll be a year from now.  I don't know where I'll be working or if I'll even be able to find a job.  I don't know when we'll start having kids.  I don't know where we'll be moving or when we'll have enough money saved up for a house.  We're hoping Jake's new job goes well enough that we're able to pay off our debt (ughhhh) and save up enough in the next year for a nice down payment on a starter home :)

I confess that I kind of like school.  Am I a total weirdo?  I love getting new books and notebooks and pencils.  And then about a week into school I'm counting down the weeks until the semester is over :/

I confess I wish that I was a better homemaker.  I want a garden and to always have a clean home and delicious dinners with the right amount of fruits and veggies every day.  It's hard though! And I know it will only get harder when we have kids :/ Boo...I just want to be a June Cleaver...but most days it's too much for me to even drag myself into the shower let alone to be a perfectly kept up woman with a perfectly kept up house.'s problems, right?

Friday, July 29, 2011

Confession Friday

I confess that I saw Harry Potter last weekend and got a little teared up in a few parts. Especially the part with Snape (I'll try not to ruin it for anyone who hasn't seen it yet).  Love stories like that just get me really emotional but then they also make me think of the greatest love story ever written...that Christ died for me when my sinful nature was undeserving and hateful towards Him. How amazing!

Speaking of movies...I confess that I kept hearing about this Captain America movie and I got pretty excited...until I realized I was confusing Captain America with Captain Planet. I have no idea who Captain America is. I really want to watch some reruns of Captain Planet though. :/ Embarrassing? Maybe.

I confess that I started writing confessions earlier this week just saving the post with intentions to go back through and edit them throughout the week when I thought of them....except I never came back to them so those are the 2 I got down this week...and now it's Friday and I can't think of any confessions.

I confess that I ate too much Taco Bell tonight. I feel sicky :(

I confess that after a year of marriage it is still hard for me to sleep if I'm away from my husband :(  I know a lot of people seem to get over that pretty quickly but I guess I'm just too used to being in the same bed as him. I miss cuddling at night :(

I confess that I go back and forth on a daily basis on how quickly I want to have children once I graduate.  I love babies and I can't wait to start having them with Jake but babies grow up and I don't think I'm ready for actual CHILDREN. Scary. Plus I kind of like it just being us some days and I know we won't get that back for decades after we start having kids. I'm too wishy washy for these kinds of decisions.

I confess that I have a lot of tv shows to catch up on so this is going to be a short one! What are your confessions?

Monday, July 25, 2011

Weekend Wrap-Up

Hmm....I always forget what happened Friday...oh right...I had my internship all day.  Went to my parents' house afterwards and then we went to see HP7 Part 2.  It was pretty good.  There were some plot changes that seemed unnecessary but I just love the story! I admit I am a Harry Potter fanatic at heart.  After the movie we went to Jake's parents' house for a little bit to see his fam and Luna the puppy :) She is a chunker! I think after that it was probably an early night to bed.  Actually I think Jake stayed up and read Pretty Little Liars with me...he's going to kill me for putting that up on here...oh well.

Saturday - Jake had a 5K in the morning and I packed all our stuff up to head back home.  We went to his grandparents' house for a little bit to visit them and his cousin, Jenni, and her husband and kids while they were in town.  We made the boring trip back down and did NOTHING. It was nice. I'm trying to think of anything significant we did but I think we just chilled and enjoyed our apartment.  Nick came over for a split second so we could grill him about this engagement with Angie :) Makes my heart smile.  That was about it for interesting right?

Sunday - I woke up to my stomach hurting BAD. I had some intestinal issues going on so Jake went to church and I laid down and watched Chicago.  I felt fine until I tried moving.  Jake went to grab some groceries after church and his hands were full so I had to open the door for him...bad move.  I got really dizzy and hot and then went and threw up.  Lovely, right?  Jake was a wonderful care taker though.  He spent part of the day cleaning while I relaxed and watched tv.  We took a nap and I felt a little better after that.  Then we spent another evening relaxing :) It was fantastic, much needed, alone time...minus the sick part.

Did any of you have more exciting weekends than we did?

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Thankful Thursday

I haven't done one of these in a while.  And the combination of heat and internships have got me in a pretty crabby, complaining I think it's time.

I'm thankful for air conditioning! Seriously...I never sweat on my face/neck area and just waiting for someone to answer the door at my parent's house made me like break out in a sweat all over my face.

I'm thankful that I have the opportunities that I do at this internship.  It's not what I thought I'd be doing and I don't think it's what I want to do with my life but I've had the opportunity to meet some amazing people and serve others so it's all good!

I'm thankful for the amazing friends and family that God has blessed me with.  I don't know what I'd do without them.  And I'm thankful that you can never have too many friends :) I love getting closer to people that I wasn't close with before. Friends are great.

I'm thankful for toothpaste...I may have said this one before.  I just really like the feeling of having clean teeth. The feeling that my teeth are dirty is just one of those things that drives me nuts.

I'm thankful for shoes. How not cool would it be to have to walk around all day on this hot ground without shoes on?  I really want to buy a pair of Toms, even though I don't think I can pull them off, just so a pair of shoes will get donated to a child who doesn't have any.

I think that's all for now....I'm going to watch HP7 part 1 with the fam in preparation for seeing part 2 tomorrow!

What are you thankful for?!

Monday, July 18, 2011

Weekend Wrap-Up of the best weekends I've had in a long time :) I love seeing two great friends who love each other so much get married!

Friday - We got up pretty darn early at Hannah's house and headed to her grandma's to set up the reception tent. It was a lot of work but with so many family members there it didn't take too long!  We had lunch at her aunt's house and then headed to the hotel to shower before the rehearsal dinner.  Hannah, Eric, Kyle (the best man and Eric's brother), and I headed to the church about an hour and a half early when the musicians were practicing the music.  The rehearsal went great and dinner was delish.  Little bits of unnecessary drama here and there but it is what it is.  After the dinner we went back to one of the rooms and bedazzled our flip flops that we were wearing to the reception :) Of course I stayed up too late hanging out with Hannah and her cousins but eventually got to bed and slept HARD. It was a long, exhausting, fun day.

Saturday - WEDDING DAY! Headed over to the church around 9 so Hannah could get ready.  We started taking pictures around 11.  Hannah looked beautiful, of course. I haven't had time to put the pictures on my computer yet but when I do they will eventually get put up on facebook!  The wedding went great and everything pretty much went as planned. I cried a few times, of could I not?! We took a little hayride from the church to Hannah's grandparents house and had the reception.  It was a good time! Hannah and Eric eventually pulled out to start their honeymoon and Jake and I left shortly afterwards to drive the 4 hours back to our apartment.   Another long day but SO worth it! Words cannot express how happy I am for Eric and Hannah :)

Sunday - 8:45am came way too early for Sunday School and church but we made it.  Had to run some errands afterwards and then we just came back, ate lunch, I watched Clue while Jake napped on the couch, then we both went back into the bedroom to nap some more.  After we woke up, we just kind of relaxed and watched some tv.  Jake played xbox while I read.  It was a nice, relaxing night at home...which doesn't happen as much as we would like it to lately.

Anything exciting happen for you all this weekend?

Friday, July 15, 2011

Confession Friday

I confess that I still need to write my toast for the wedding that I'm in....tomorrow. I always swore when I was the matron of honor I would NOT put this off until the last minute.  I've been writing it in my head for weeks but it needs to be on paper. Honestly, I don't think I'm funny...I'm pretty awkward. But I don't want to give some real serious speech. I'm making Jake help me.

Speaking of Jake...I confess (for him) that we found his first gray hair today.  Actually Eric found it. Hannah's grandpa gave me pliers and I pulled the sucker out.

I confess that I'm hot, sweaty, feel disgusting, and my feet stink! Shower time for me once Hannah gets done :)

I confess that I'm SO excited for this wedding but I'm dreading the 4-5 hour drive back to our apartment tomorrow night :/  I'm so happy for Eric and Hannah though! It makes my heart happy.

I confess I haven't showered in about 3 days. Gross? Maybe. Do I care? Not really.

I confess that I'm really glad that Hannah got us closed toe heels for the wedding because my toes look gross...I had every intention of getting a pedicure but instead I've got toenails with polish chipping off from my last pedicure about a month or so ago :x

I think that's about all for now...any confessions from you all?!

Monday, July 11, 2011

Weekend Wrap-Up

The weekend always goes by too fast...especially when I actually have things to do Monday.

Friday - Internship all day. Kind of sucked actually because I was supposed to get off at 4:30 and Jake and I were going to celebrate our anniversary at the hotel we spent our wedding night at.  Jake got to the hotel around 2ish.  Then some crisis situations came up and Kristina needed me to go on a meeting that she could not longer make it I called Jake and of course he was an amazing, understanding husband.  So I got there a little before 6 instead. We had a great dinner and dessert. Unfortunately, the week wore me out and I was passed out by like 9pm. SO lame. Oh well.

Saturday - Just kind of chilled around Jake's parents house until about 3:30 when we went to get a PUPPY! She's the cutest little thing ever. That family is lucky...I'm gonna miss her being around when we go home :( Her name is Luna and she's part German Shepherd and part Australian Shepherd. She's totally adorable. So obviously we played with her all night.

Sunday - Church...our mission team talked about the week in West Virginia during Sunday School.  It made me miss WV and the kiddos there a whole bunch.  Jake and I had lunch with my parents after church and then Jake fell asleep, of course, while Mom, Bekah, and I watched some Harry Potter.  Went back to Jake's parents and Nicole, Hanna, and I took Luna to her first Starbucks trip :)
Puppy's first Starbucks experience!

The nice man in the drive-thru window gave her a cup of whipped cream. It was cute until we took it away from her and she tried eating my frap's whipped cream...

Licking that whipped cream off her face! Such a cute little girl!

Obviously the most spoiled dog ever. She's worth it though! After we got back, Jake and I went to see Aaron (the pastor that married us) and his wife and 3 kids. Their son is 2 and a half years old and their twin daughters will be 1 in August. HANDFUL. It was a really fun visit and so good to see them all!  After that visit Jake had to go back to our apartment for his internship meeting Monday.  I spent the night getting blizzards with my family and going back to Jake's parent's house and watching Nicole shove 8 pieces of double bubble in her mouth :) Unfortunately, no pictures were taken.  I went to sleep after reading some Twilight and Nigel cuddled with me under the blankets :) Poor kitty is getting neglected with a new pet in the house.

Overall, it was a fantastic weekend! What did you all do!?

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Casey Anthony

Unless you've been living under a rock lately, you've heard something about the Casey Anthony trial and have some opinion on it.  I honestly watched none of the trial and knew little to no information about it until yesterday on my drive to my internship.  I knew she was found not guilty and people were pretty dang upset about it.  All morning on the radio I heard people calling in with their view on things and parts of the trial that made it seem like there was no way she was innocent.  I was crying at one point on the trip because it's just so emotionally overwhelming, especially since the DJ was getting really emotional because she has a 2 year old son.

But then I found myself thinking 'God can forgive her, no matter if she did it or not'.  I turned off my radio at this point and just sat there and prayed for her.  In God's eyes, her sins (whatever they may be) are no worse than anything you or I have ever done...and we're no better than her.  This is where the grace and love of Christ comes in.  Without Christ taking my sin and giving me His righteousness, I'd be destined for hell for the "not so bad" things that I've done.  When it comes down to it, without Christ we're all the same sinners destined for the same end.

I know this isn't a popular idea and it's super challenging.  It's much easier for me to be angry and bitter at a woman that may have ruthlessly killed her little girl.  It's a horrible crime that should never be committed by anyone.  But nothing is too horrible of a crime for God.  Christ's grace is sufficient for ALL sins.  How amazing for us.  How blessed we are.

"But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me." - 2 Corinthians 12:9

Praise the Lord that I'm weak and His grace and power can be made perfect in a weak sinner like me.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011


Long time, no blog huh?

The mission trip was AMAZING! I want to go back to West Virginia.  It was just so much fun and I got to know the members of our team from our church so much better than I did before.  I also grew to have a bigger heart for the Lord and His people and understanding why we do things like mission trips.  It was so amazing.

We got home Friday evening and then Saturday was Jake's cousin's wedding.  It was a blast.  I love family functions, especially when there are weddings involved :)  Of course, pictures were taken!
The bride and groom!

And my favorite picture of the night...thanks Andy for the wonderful photography :) Jake and I were singing My Girl to each other and we  noticed Andy was wanting to take a "candid" moment picture so I guess we were laughing about that?

Needless to say, it was tons of fun!  Sunday - Jake's Aunt Sandy (the mother of the groom) had people over at her house for a barbecue.  Chris and Jillian also opened some wedding presents before taking off on their honeymoon.  It was fun but Jake and I had a nice drive back to our apartment that afternoon so we couldn't stay long.  We got to relax a little bit and then went to a Wii party night at Nikki's apartment...which really just turned into everyone talking and watching Juno. It was a great time though!

Monday - We did NOTHING. It was fabulous. I loved all the time I got to spend with people over the last week and a half...don't get me wrong...but I have a limit on social-ness and mine was up wayyyyy before the wedding on Saturday.  Jake and I were supposed to go to an annual root-beer float party thing at our Sunday School teachers' house but I was not having it. At one point I told Jake I just needed to be alone so being the loving and amazing husband he is, he left the apartment to buy himself a new dress shirt and to get me some chips that I had been craving and Reese's peanut butter cup ice cream.  He's the best. I needed the alone time.  He also sacrificed his love of socializing and stayed home with me to watch the series premiere of Love in the Wild, which we missed while we were on the Mission Trip.  We also watched some episodes of Heroes on Netflix and ended the night with Inception.  It was possibly one of the best 4th of July's that I've ever had.  Of course, I would have loved going out to a barbecue or something...just not after the past week and a half of no alone time for me or us.

Overall, I enjoyed this past week and a half and grew a lot but I'm also glad to be back in my apartment (while it lasts) with internet and my own space :)

How was everyone's weekend?

Friday, June 24, 2011

Confession Friday

I confess that I don't really have time for a post. Too much to do today! I'm leaving on a mission trip at 5am tomorrow so I won't be posting again until around the 4th of July probably!

Don't miss me too much :)

Friday, June 17, 2011

Confession Friday

Sorry for being such a boringggg blogger lately guys! Not much to tell here I guess and I'm not really sure anyone actually reads this blog anyway...haha.'s Friday and you know what that means!

I confess that I've been a big mopey crabby mess this week. I have no idea what my deal is but I'm starting to annoy myself so I feel bad for my husband.  Of course he's great though and would never say anything about what a jerk I can be.

I confess that I have NO desire to go back to school in the fall.  At all.  I just want to keep working here or volunteering or something.  None of my classes are teaching me anything worthwhile anyway.  I'm learning way more through experience here than I am in school.

I confess that I keep getting cold sores in my mouth and they're getting freakin ridiculous.  I used to get one every once in a while but now I have one at all times.  They hurt and they make me eat all weird because I can't close my mouth completely. Hate it!!

I confess that I'm officially an old person....I'm ready for bed at like 9pm every night. It's ridiculous.

I confess that I'm trying to stop drinking caffeine....once again. Good luck with that right?  I'm challenging myself to do it until we leave on our mission trip in 8 days and then I'm allowing myself to cheat because we'll be driving and getting fast food on the way and I really love Dr. Pepper...haha.

I confess that I treat my cat like a child...I feel like I've confessed this before.  But seriously...he sleeps in bed with me, I give him little kisses, cover him with blankets when he's sleeping, and just like playing with him and watching him sleep. Creeper I know.  It's going to be 239408230 times worse when I have human babies. Ayiyi.

I confess that I'm I should probably get going and get some lunch.

Your turn! Leave me something to read in my boredom!

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Our story

So I have to leave for my internship in approximately 15 we'll see if I get through this whole post or have to come back later.  Today marks the six year dating anniversary for the hubby and I :) Sooooo I decided to dedicate a post to our's pretty least I think so :)

I guess it really started during the end of our freshman year of high school.  To set the situation up: my grandpa was in the hospital and it was basically a matter of time before he passed away...everyone knew he wasn't getting better. My boyfriend at the time had completely stopped talking to me and dumped me about 3 days before my grandpa passed away. Meanwhile, Jake had been calling me and talking to me on AIM about things that were going on and seeing how I was doing with everything. We kind of started talking more seriously, me about Luke (ex-boyfriend) and Jake about Kaci (the girl he liked that started dating another guy...I also ended up becoming really good friends with her when I moved up there about a year later....she was even in our wedding...funny how it all works out!).  We lived an hour away so we could each talk about these people without the other one really knowing anyone involved in the situation.

Anyhow, I kind of started liking Jake and church camp was coming up in June so I was like what the heck...something might happen, right? Fat chance, but a girl can hope.  We talked and hung out a lot for the first two days and on that Wednesday night, June 8, 2005, everything changed. Gosh, I'm so corny today. For real though...the way I remember it is we were sitting in the middle of a couch with four people squished on it. Someone got up at one point but neither one of us moved away at all. Neither one of us had any idea that the other one liked us. So we're just sitting there and our hands are laying REALLY close together. All the sudden our pinkies are intertwined. Still no talking or even eye contact at this point. At one point someone turned the light off to play with a glow stick and we took the opportunity to hold hands (because you can't do that in public at church camp!). The lights would come back on and we'd go back to holding pinkies. It became a game...we kept convincing the guy to turn the lights off to show us the glowstick so we could hold hands. So sneaky!  It was so totally unlike us to make any kind of move like that. Reason number 1 I knew we were meant to be together :)

Haha there's a picture from that night I'm pretty sure...soooo young!

However, Friday came quickly! We had to leave and we lived an hour away from each other. We were both 15 so we couldn't even drive.  We had no idea if we were going to continue to pursue any kind of relationship or anything. We didn't really even know if we were dating, boyfriend/girlfriend, or nothing at all. It was a weird situation. After we got home Jake talked to me on AIM about how he didn't think this would work or know what we were doing at all but there's no way it would work out and I, of all people, told him let's just see where it goes for the summer. If any of you know me, you know how unlike me that is.  I'm a planner. I HATE not knowing exactly what's going to happen. It was so not like me to say anything like that...Reason Number 2 I know we were meant to be together :)

Long story short, we saw each other on and off that summer...about once a month. The longest we went without seeing each other was 2 months right before homecoming.  I got my license in December so we started seeing each other almost every weekend at that point, whether I would go up and stay at my amazing friend Emmy's house :) or we'd meet up at the mall or something...we made it work.

So I can't find the picture of Jake and I from his this was my homecoming a week after his!

So this went on until I got an ulcer in February...too much long-distance stress I guess.  I debated my next move for awhile and eventually asked my parents if there was anyway we could move to Jake's hometown. I played the whole "better school system" blah blah blah expecting them to say...ha yeah right, nice try. However, my mom said we can look at houses. Reason number 3 I knew we were meant to be together.

So we moved in August and that was a whole new adjustment for our relationship.  We had long-distance down...we didn't know how to be in a relationship where we saw each other every day.  It definitely took some getting used to.  We dated all through the rest of high school and ended up going to the same college...because we both liked and could afford that college and NOT because the other one was going there. Yeah, that was a bonus but we didn't want to be THAT couple that made their choices solely based on what the other person was doing. We dated our whole first year of college and then on July 7, 2009 Jake proposed! We had gone to look at rings and then out for dessert and the little stinker had already picked out a ring 3 weeks ago...he got lucky and it was the same ring that I picked out that night when we went to look.

On the night he proposed.

The rest is history! We got married on June 26, 2010 and are quickly approaching our one year anniversary.  We've made it through one year of college as a married couple and we have one more to go.  It's been challenging and busy but I wouldn't do it any other way if I could and I don't think Jake would either.

Sorry for such a long post...I just love our story :)

P.S...I did not get that written in the 15 minutes before my internship. It's about 7 hours later than when I started this sucker.

Monday, June 6, 2011

Weekend Wrap-Up

Ahhhh....the weekend. Except I was sick for most of it's almost been more relaxing last night/today than most of the weekend. Let's see though...

Friday - Jake left at like 7am for work and I couldn't fall back asleep.  I don't really remember what I did. I know that around 2ish I left to meet my sister and we drove down to meet my parents at work.  We went out to dinner for Mom's birthday and then went and each got a book (Mom's treat because of all the overtime she's been working). Bekah had to work so I went home with Mom and Dad and spent an hour-ish sorting through a bunch of my books that were in the garage. It was so hard to get rid of some of them...I secretly kept some just because I want to read them with my kids someday. Is that weird? Idk I started feeling pretty yucky that night so I went to bed at like...10:00pm on Friday night...woke up once at midnight and I couldn't breathe through my nose AT ALL. Sick. Woke up again at 7am and was like oh noooo we're sleeping in today. So I finally really woke up at like 10:30am on Saturday. Success.

Saturday...oh goodness. I felt TERRIBLE. Stuffy nose, headache, cough, super sore throat. Gross. So I stayed up in our bedroom at Jake's parent's house almost the whole day watching Giuliana & Bill, The Hills, and reading.  Lazy day but I felt so awful.  At one point Pam (Jake's mom) had brought me a chocolate chip cookie from a grad party they went to...I couldn't taste it....nothing. No taste of chocolate or cookie at all. How terrible!  I eventually drug myself out of bed at like 4:30 (I had gotten up to eat breakfast and shower worries) and went to tell my family bye since both parents had to work on Sunday so I wouldn't see them at church.  Then Hanna (Jake's sister) got off work early so I went to pick her up...I was starting to feel a little better but not great. I got in bed around 10 I think and fell asleep by the time Jake got home at 11. He came in and said he had to go eat and shower but I left the little lamp on for him....apparently fell asleep and did not wake up until I felt the cat walking on me in the early early morning hours.  It scares me how he can come in and get in bed and I don't even wake up. Kinda creepy. Oh well. in the morning.  Went with Nicole (Jake's sister) to pick up her skateboard at Wal-mart....she hardcore like that...bahaha.  Ate lunch. Chilled out and packed everything up. Went to a graduation party and ate some more...not that I needed to.  Finally headed back home!  We walked in the door and were just sitting on the couch and I was just like...this is relaxing isn't it!? It just felt so peaceful. That's the way home should be :)  We just kind of hung out, watched The Big Bang Theory...ate a little bit. There was some minor drama for me and Jake got to hear me vent a little bit but what's done is done.  It is what it is and I'm moving on. The whole situation is still on my mind and I'm just kind of blown away that it actually happened but...what can you do? Not that anyone knows what I'm talking about. Oh well.

Overall, boring weekend. Wish I hadn't been sick...I planned on spending some time at the pool :( Oh well.

Friday, June 3, 2011

Confession Friday

First of all, I'd like to wish my Mom and Uncle Mike a VERY happy birthday!!  You are both amazing people and I don't know where I'd be without you...especially Momma :)

I confess that I love Fridays when I haven't been into work since Wednesday....I thought yesterday was Friday/Saturday. I thought today was Thursday/Saturday when I woke up. I love that part about summer...never knowing what day of the week it is.

I confess that I'm getting all sicky. Boo. I don't know if it's sinuses or something I caught form some little kiddos at my internship.  Either way, I'm sick of all this pressure/snot in my head. Guh-rossss.

I confess that my plans today are to catch up on 16 & Pregnant, The Voice, and watch reruns of The Hills on Netflix. Don't judge me.

I confess that the bar scene is obviously not for me. We went to watch Nicole (Jake's sister) perform last night and I felt like an old person. I hated half the bands because their music was ridiculously loud (to cover up how bad the lead singer was, I'm sure) and I felt like the whole place was too dirty and creepy to order any kind of drink...unless it came in a bottle and even then I was skeptical.  And I made sure to hold my pee until we got home because I was not going near those bathrooms. I sound like a huge snob.  But was decorated with Halloween decorations. Ew.

I also confess that I'm pretty sure half the people at the bar last night were staring at me while I played Angry Birds on Jake's phone waiting for Nicole to go on because they knew I was completely out of place. Oh well.

I confess that I kind of feel like I'm in a rut. I feel like nothing I do on a daily basis is helping others out in any way and it has no impact on others.  I feel this huge desire to serve and I have no idea where or how to start that...or maybe I just lie to myself and say that when really my heart isn't fully in it :/

I confess that I can be way too judgmental of others. And I jump to way too many conclusions without any evidence. I don't like that about myself.

How about you guys....any confessions!?

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Weekend Wrap-Up

I love when weekend wrap-ups come on Tuesdays :) <3 long weekends!

Soooooo Friday after I got out of my internship I came back and met Jake and we headed to Blake and Angie's rehearsal. It was fun times and we met some new was had by all :)  We were supposed to go out to this annual picnic with everyone but I was POOPED when we got back so I changed into pajamas and we just hung out with Jake's parents.

Saturday, I got up around 9 to meet Mom and Bekah for pedicures and Panera....yummmmm.  I had eaten breakfast before going so I just got a frozen caramel but it was well worth it.  Then I went back to Jake's parents house to get ready for the wedding. It was a beautiful wedding with a beautiful bride! I've always loved weddings but I super love them ever since having my own. I was excited to get lots of pictures, too....first pictures of summer!

The bride and her daddy

Isn't she so pretty :)

So needless to say, Saturday was fun.  It was  LONG day for us old married people though.  The bride and groom left a little bit after 9 but we stayed around to help clean up until about 10:30.  I was WIPED.

Sunday, we had church and sunday school and then Jake had to work :(  I did some training for my internship online and then headed over to my parents house for the afternoon.  I ended up falling asleep there for like an hour before dinner...whoops.  Dinner was good and I enjoyed hanging out with the fam.  We had brats, potato salad, and deviled eggs and Mom made pound cake with strawberries and cool whip for dessert. Then I went back to Jake's parents house to get some work done.  Nicole was the only person home most of the night so I just sat around and read and waited for Jake to get off work. Boring.

Monday, Jake and I slept until 11. It was amazing, even if it messed me up for today.  We just kinda relaxed and got stuff done around the house until dinner time. Jake's dad grilled brats, hamburgers, and asparagus and his mom made cheesy potato casserole, cheesy broccoli casserole, strawberry pie, and another pie that I think probably kind of tastes like a chocolate chip cookie? Not sure. It was a FEAST though. I went to bed full.  Of course I tried going to bed right at like...9:30. I hadn't even been up for 12 hours so it wasn't happening.  We didn't end up falling asleep until after midnight and I had to be up at 6:15. Jake's at work for the whole night tonight so I'm gonna call a night in It's gonna be early to bed for this girl tonight.

I hope everyone had fabulous Memorial Day weekends!

Saturday, May 28, 2011


I confess I was too busy to blog yesterday.  That rarely happens in my boring life.  I literally was not back at Jake's parents' house for more than 20 minutes from 7am to 9pm. Busybusybusy.

I confess that all these weddings going on this summer put me in a wedding mood.  They also make me re-think some regrets I have about our wedding.  There really aren't any other than a videographer.  I really wish we had gotten one :( Oh well...nothing that can be done about it now....

I confess that Jake and I laid in bed last night talking about our different elementary/junior high school experiences.  I'm so conflicted about where I want to raise our future children.  I grew up in a small town and only went to a big school for my last two years of high school.  I feel like the bigger schools better prepare you for college but I LOVE the small town life.  I want to be able to look through my yearbooks from my little small town high school and be able to tell my kids who the people in there are in relation to kids in their class...but I know Jake will NEVER go for moving back to my hometown. Ever. We were talking though...and he went to like 3 different schools here from 3rd grade to 8th grade....his 3rd-5th grade school was a 3 story K-8 school had 3 hallways....we had such different experiences.  The thing that made me most sad was when he said they didn't have a roller skating unit in P.E. That was my favorite part of sad, right? I'm so at odds with myself about where I want to raise our kids. Buhhhh.

I confess that I'm super paranoid about creepers on this blog which is why I give out no WHERE we went to schools, our last name, anything. I'm so just creeps me out.

I confess I'm listening to Jesse McCartney.  What comes up on the iTunes list...I must listen to. It's a rule. I love it.

I confess that I have a love/hate relationship with food places that put calories on everything now. I want to drink my frozen caramel from Panera without knowing that it's 600 calories, thanks.

I confess that I'm sick of this yucky weather. I'm ready for it to feel like summer already. Goodness gracious.

I confess that I had a dream that I was pregnant last night and I woke up just a little bit excited :/ our time will come...just not for another few years :(  I know I should enjoy our alone time now though because once you have kids there is NO going back.

I confess that it makes me sad when people text me/write on my facebook posts about how much they love my blog but they won't follow me :( I'm excited that I'm up to 10 followers but I know more of my friends are out there reading this :)

Any confessions from you readers?! This was a long post...I want some feedback!

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Thankful Thursday

Long time, no update. Although I'm pretty sure only 10 people read this blog...on a good day. Oh the scheduled Thankful Thursday :)

I'm thankful for music...I'm sure I've used this one before. I just LOVE it. I can't be on my computer in a quiet room...itunes is always open and playing.  Jake makes fun of me because I have over 8 days worth of music on my playlist. Limewire was good to me before it gave my computer a virus :(

I'm thankful for my internship. I'm already learning SO much and meeting some really great people.  I'm kinda bummed because the office only has like 8 people so the chances of this internship leading to a job is probably not so great but the experience will be awesome. And I'll just have babies and stay home for a few years, Lord willing, so a job hopefully won't be a pressing issue.

On that note, I'm thankful for how hardworking my husband is.  I'm so proud of him! We had a dinner for his internship tonight and he is the lead intern in his office. His business has really taken off and he's really starting to get the ball rolling.  He has always and always will do what it takes to provide and I LOVE that about him. I know he makes a lot of sacrifices so that I can focus on school and not have to work a lot.  He's just so great! I have to brag on him a little bit :)

I'm thankful for the wisdom and advice Jake and I can get from my parents and his parents.  They have been through a lot of life experiences between the 4 of them.  They are never pushy of their views or opinions but if you ask them they will give you advice to take or leave.  The older I get, the more I'm starting to appreciate what I can learn from the things my parents and his parents have gone through.  We're both so blessed to have such level-headed and wise parents :)

I'm thankful for Christ's example as a servant.  This is something that has been so heavy on my heart lately.  Christ spent His whole life serving His servants.  These people should have been bowing down to Him and most of them watched and cheered as He died.  That's heavy stuff.  I rarely serve my FRIENDS, let alone people I'm not close with.  I don't really feel that I have "enemies" per se, but I definitely wouldn't be a servant to them if I did.  Jake and I are going on a mission trip in June and I'm hoping it really changes my heart and attitude about serving.  We're going to serve complete strangers, but I know that's what I should be doing daily in my hometown...I shouldn't have to travel halfway across the U.S. to do that....sigh.

What are you all thankful for?! Don't be shy :)

Friday, May 13, 2011

Confession Friday 2 of summer. Love <3 So we'll do a confession Friday :)

I confess I scared myself half to death in the shower the other day.  I heard some noises in the apartment (turns out it was Jake, home on a break he wasn't supposed to have). So I'm peeking my head around the shower curtain because I had left the door cracked.  I thought it might have been Nigel jumping off of something.  Let me just clue you in on a little-known fact about me...I HATE showering when I'm alone in the apartment.  It freaks me out because I can't hear anything going on outside the bathroom. So I'm trying to peek through the cracked door to see if I can see Nigel and I see someone out of the corner of my eye in the bathroom. I almost passed out...until I realized it was the corner of the mirror and I was seeing myself in the shower. Holy cow. I almost died. Talk about paranoid. Then Jake walked into the bathroom while I was standing there in a towel trying to do my hair. Second heart attack of the day.

I confess that I spent all week thinking of confessions and now I'm drawing a blank. one...I confess that I threw an embarrassing temper tantrum on Monday :/  Not something I'm proud of.  Jake wanted to take me shopping because I needed some shoes to go with my brown dress and any khaki pants outfits.  I also needed some summer dresses for all these weddings we have going on.  So naturally we go to Charlotte Russe.  They have the DUMBEST shoe sizes EVER! One pair that I loved only came in a 7. Usually a 7 would be perfect...not there...I need an 8.  So I find another pair I love to go with my brown outfits...perfect. But it's buy one, get one for 10 naturally I need another pair.  I find a couple of cute pairs with backs on them.  One was HUGE in an 8 but too small in a 7. Would have been fine without the back on it.  The other pair had a back too and it fit fine but my toes were like hanging off the front. So I threw the shoes on the ground at Jake's feet and walked right out of the store and out of the mall to our car. How embarrassing. I felt like a 2 year-old.

I also confess that we ended up going back to the mall after getting ice cream from Sonic. And I bought 3 skirts, 3 shirts, a dress, 2 pairs of shoes, and a necklace.  Jake rewards me for acting childish, I guess? It was a good shopping trip after all the anger.

Since we're on the shopping theme, I confess that I thought I ruined one on my new shirts by drying it when it said hang to dry.  I thought the front looked all messed up so I called Jake upset about it and he was on his way home from a meeting so he stopped by the mall and bought me another one without telling me.  He texed me to see what size it was...and I confess I was watching reruns of the Hills so I didn't get up to check (sorry, babe) so I told him xs.  He comes home and I take one look at the shirt and it's IDENTICAL to my "messed up" shirt. Mistake number one.  Mistake number two...the shirt I already had was a small...not an extra small. He was less than thrilled. I found it amusing...he didn't find it to be so amusing :x

Wow...those were long confessions...that mostly make me look like a stupid jerk.  Oh well.  I know some of you facebook friends of mine read this blog and are NOT following me or commenting.  Don't secretly stalk my blog...follow me! Comment! Share some confessions of your own :)

Monday, May 9, 2011

Weekend Wrap-Up

Let's see...Friday I had class, my last tutoring session EVER, and more class. Then Jake left to go to his parents to work for the weekend and I just kind of hung out until Cindy and Kristen got here :) We got some good talking time in before bed.

Saturday was Hannah's shower day! I spent the morning making punch and after Laura got here we made taco dip and had our first cupcake icing experience.

I would say we did a pretty good job. I did the strawberry and Laura did the chocolate.

Then we finished up getting her recipe box and everything ready.  Got to Lisa's to set up for the party. It was so much fun :) It was a great group of people and it was the perfect size.  She got some good presents...even if some of them were prettyyyy risqué ;) Then we got to take some pictures!

 Love these girls!

After that we came back to the apartment and had girls night :) We made pizzas and mac and cheese and our own little chocolate covered strawberries.  Brilliant idea on Cindy's part.  We bought magic shell and put the strawberries in the freezer so they would cool down quickly.  Then we dipped the cold strawberries in the magic shell and had instant chocolate covered strawberries! We also had some pretty good pineapple.  Of course we had to watch a chick flick and The Proposal won. I stayed up wayyyyy too late talking to Candice and Cindy but it was a good night with some good talks and lots of fun with good friends!

Sunday was Mother's Day...but I'm really hoping you all knew that already.  Dan's sermon in church was SUPER convicting. I had a lot of emotions and thoughts running through my head so studying for finals was not too successful that afternoon.  Then my Mom and Bekah came and we went out to Olive Garden to eat. It was delish...thanks Mom! We should have gotten a picture together while you were both here! We came back and chatted at the apartment for a little bit and a few hours after they left Jake came home. We were in bed by like 8:30 just laying there and talking.  It was a good night :)

So overall it was a successful weekend! Did you guys do anything special for Mother's Day?!

Friday, May 6, 2011

Confession Friday

It's been a long week. My brain is fried. Yay finals....

I confess that I have mixed feelings about this internship this summer. I think it's going to be AMAZING but I'm dreading the 40 minute drive through rush-hour traffic to get there by 8am :/ Also dreading the 40 minute drive back in rush-hour traffic. Boo.

I confess that the only thing I've eaten today is cheesy potatoes. And they were delicious.

I confess that I should be studying for finals but the first disc of the second season of The Big Bang Theory came in my netflix studying probably isn't going to happen.

I confess that Nigel has been sleeping in the closet lately and I miss him sleeping in the bed with me :( He's turned our walk-in closet into his own personal bedroom. He sleeps on our suitcases and gets them covered in fur...annoying. But he's so cute in the morning when our alarms go off and he comes stretching out of the closet cooing and begging for food.  He is so my child........ugh.  I feel like I need a real baby so I stop obsessing over my cat.

I confess that I'm not going to be sad that my junior year of college is all.  In fact, I wish more than anything that it was my senior year. I want to be done. Now.

I confess that I'm a little bummed that we planned Hannah's shower for the same weekend as my church's mother-daughter tea. I really wanted to go tomorrow. The shower will be great! I just wish I could do both somehow :(

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Identity Crisis

As of yesterday, I'm having an identity crisis.  That may not be the right description.  I just have NO idea what I want to do with my life anymore. Buhhh.  This seems to be the story of my's slowly been building up since high school I guess. Ever since like 2nd grade I thought I knew what I wanted to study in school, deaf education. Dead set on it until my senior year of high school.  I realized how few colleges have that area of study and how few jobs there are out there so it would completely dictate my school choices and where I lived when I graduated.  So I threw everything into nursing.  I even opted to take Honors Biology 2, which I had previously dropped because I failed the first test, instead of taking Child Development or a foods class. I worked my butt off senior year and my first two years at college to get into that nursing program.  I ate, slept, and breathed anatomy and physiology.  All that hard work paid off and I got into the nursing program. I was STOKED! Then I got married, realized how expensive and time consuming the nursing program was and wasn't completely sure it was what I wanted.  I think I got so caught up in the challenge of getting into the program that I didn't take time to think about if I really wanted to do it for the rest of my life.

So I changed my major to family studies.  I had taken a family studies course as a gen ed my sophomore year and I really liked it and thought it would be my back-up plan if I didn't get into the nursing program. I was looking at job options with it and adoption specialist was at the top of the list. So I prayed about it...a lot. Ended up changing my major and then letting my parents know...actually I had Jake let my parents know while I sat there. I was terrified lol.  Anyhow, now anytime I hear about the nursing program or see the nursing students in their scrubs I get this little pang of jealousy. But I'm really excited about working in an adoption agency. And really, once I have kids I just want to be a mom for awhile.

So Jake and I were talking a few weeks ago and somehow the idea of doing one of those second degree nursing programs came up.  I would love to work part-time once my kids are not babies anymore but still not adults and I think that would be easier to do with nursing than in an adoption agency. But I really just want kids when we graduate and I don't want to do another 2 years of school. The choices! Now pretty much every job I hear about sounds interesting. It's annoying. I have NO idea what I want to do...besides someday have kids and stay home with them. Being an adult stinks sometimes...

Enough whining's done in exactly a week for me! Then I'm a senior. Weirrrrd.

Friday, April 29, 2011

Confession Friday

I confess that I give my cat kisses. He's like my little baby. He's just so cute that I can't help myself. Of course, when he responds by biting my lip, chin, nose, etc. then it's not so cute.

I confess that we have lived in this apartment for over a month and there are still boxes of picture frames from OUR WEDDING that we have not put pictures in or hung up. Our walls are so bare and it drives me crazy but I SUCK at decorating :( We also have boxes and lots of unpacked things in the spare bedroom closet...and I don't think they will get touched until we move again. Sad day.

I confess that we have a litter box in our spare bathroom. Long story. It should have been left at Jake's parent's house and then it was in my trunk and there's random little pieces of litter and left over cat waste in it and it was stinking up my car BAD so Jake moved it to the bathroom....Gross? Yes. We have no idea what to do with it though. And it could use a good cleaning.

I confess my kitchen could also use a good cleaning. Disaster area. That's what I get for making chili in a crock pot the same day that Jake decided to make chocolate chip cookies.

I confess that I keep telling myself I will control how much Easter candy I eat and then I end up eating about twice as much as I was going to let myself eat any given day. All that chocolate is sooooo tempting. Especially when the doctor told me to avoid chocolate and caffeine (not that I had gobs of it before).

I confess that I'm addicted to caffiene...which I never realized until I tried stopping to drink it. Yesterday was HORRIBLE. I had zero energy and I had an 8 hour day straight of classes and tutoring.  I got to my tutoring sessions and I was trying realllll hard not to fall asleep. I felt horrible :(

I confess that I'm uber excited for Hannah's family bridal shower this weekend but I'm nervous about doing her friends shower next weekend.  I feel like we haven't had that much to do yet which means next week should probably be crazy busy full of things to get ready but all I can think of is what food to buy. I'm horrible at planning parties :( I apologize to my future children for all the sucky horribly planned birthday parties you have.

I confess that I did just get done watching Royal Wedding highlights...yes I'm sick of hearing about it but that doesn't mean I'm not going to watch it. That's like every girl's dream right there.  She's also Catherine Elizabeth...and I'm Kathryn Elizabeth...just not the right one apparently.  But she was flawless! And her sister was looking absolutely gorgeous as well. But to be honest...I've always thought Prince Harry was cuter...sorry Will!

What confessions do you have?

Tuesday, April 26, 2011


I had an epiphany about words today. I finished the book I was reading (Atonement) and the ending was so heavy and profound, basically about how you can write your own ending to stories. Life may turn out one way but with words you can literally write your story how you want it to turn out. Or at least that's what I took out of it.  I've also had some things going on lately where I realize the way that I phrase things could make all the difference on how these things turn out. As a whole, I think our society throws words around without putting too much thought into them. We LOVE certain foods and HATE school/work. Those are strong words, my friends. You can word something one way and have one effect on people and then word the same something in a totally different way and have a totally different effect on people. It's crazy.  I think a lot of the time we THINK we're getting the message across the same way that it is in our head but in reality it comes across completely differently. It's such a hard thing to wrap my mind around. I know what message I'm trying to convey with this post but will other people get the message that I meant for them to get or will they get something different out of it? Just a thought.

Other than's raining again. Biiiiiig surprise. I'll be surprised if half the U.S. is above water by the end of this week.

Monday, April 25, 2011

Weekend Wrap-Up

It was a wonderful, long weekend. Jake and I got to my parents' house Thursday night and just hung was nice to relax.  Friday, Jake had some meetings and my mom had a flat tire so a mother-daughter trip to Wal-Mart was called for. We picked out Easter candy and walked around wasting time until the car was done. Friday night we had Easter dinner with my parents and watched Harry Potter :) It was interrupted by the tornado sirens so the whole family (including the animals) went to the basement, except my dad, who ran around from door to door while singing "It's Raining Men."  Never a dull moment in that household.

Saturday, we went to Easter dinner with Jake's mom's side of the family.  The food was delicious and it was great to see some of the family! We then went back to Jake's parents' house and dyed Easter eggs.  Then Pam realized they had no vinegar so we did the tie-dying kit instead.  It was interesting...they didn't really look too tie-dyed. Then we ate dinner and had family movie night, pets included as always.  Nigel slept on my lap under a blanket while we watched Salt.  It was good in a corny and really unbelievable way.

Sunday was church. The service was really good.  It seems like it's so easy to not be affected by the Easter story because we hear it so often, at least for me. So it was good to just focus on the message again and really let it sink it. Christ, the Son of God, died for me and my sins. How amazing! Then we had Easter dinner with Jake's dad's side of the family.  We didn't get to stay really long because we were trying to make the 2 hour trip back home between storms.  The food was good and there were so many little kids around :) Family functions are so much more fun when there's little kids chasing each other around. Sadly, I took NO pictures this weekend :( I know, I failed big time. Sunday night was nice and relaxing though.  Jake and I just hung out, did laundry, unpacked, and watched 24. We're addicted. It's sad.

How was everyone's Easter?!

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Thankful Thursday

I'm thankful for food. It's so easy for me to complain and say we have NOTHING to eat and that we need to go out or buy more food but I neglect to realize that not everyone has the opportunities to go out to eat or grocery shopping when they don't have food. And some people would look through my fridge and pantry when I'm complaining and feast on what I call "no food". So I'm thankful for grocery shopping....who would've thought?!

I'm thankful for music. It gets me through a lot. Love it.

I'm thankful that Jake and I got to babysit some cute little kids last night :) It was fun and kind of showed us a very very little glimpse of what our future will be like...someday! It was fun and exhausting and we both loved it.

I'm thankful that I have various forms of entertainment/relaxation.  When I'm tired of doing homework or working I can flip on netflix or watch shows online or read or listen to music or hang out with friends. I need that balance of work and fun in my life and I'm thankful for it!

I'm thankful for this little booger....
Seriously....he's so cute. He slept like that for hours.

Last, but definitely NOT least, I'm thankful for the peace that only God can give. No matter what trials I go through I have peace. I do not have to worry because I know He holds me in His hands and every situation is going to bring Him glory. It's such a calming peace. So great.
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid." - John 14:27
How awesome is that....