As of yesterday, I'm having an identity crisis. That may not be the right description. I just have NO idea what I want to do with my life anymore. Buhhh. This seems to be the story of my life...it's slowly been building up since high school I guess. Ever since like 2nd grade I thought I knew what I wanted to study in school, deaf education. Dead set on it until my senior year of high school. I realized how few colleges have that area of study and how few jobs there are out there so it would completely dictate my school choices and where I lived when I graduated. So I threw everything into nursing. I even opted to take Honors Biology 2, which I had previously dropped because I failed the first test, instead of taking Child Development or a foods class. I worked my butt off senior year and my first two years at college to get into that nursing program. I ate, slept, and breathed anatomy and physiology. All that hard work paid off and I got into the nursing program. I was STOKED! Then I got married, realized how expensive and time consuming the nursing program was and wasn't completely sure it was what I wanted. I think I got so caught up in the challenge of getting into the program that I didn't take time to think about if I really wanted to do it for the rest of my life.
So I changed my major to family studies. I had taken a family studies course as a gen ed my sophomore year and I really liked it and thought it would be my back-up plan if I didn't get into the nursing program. I was looking at job options with it and adoption specialist was at the top of the list. So I prayed about it...a lot. Ended up changing my major and then letting my parents know...actually I had Jake let my parents know while I sat there. I was terrified lol. Anyhow, now anytime I hear about the nursing program or see the nursing students in their scrubs I get this little pang of jealousy. But I'm really excited about working in an adoption agency. And really, once I have kids I just want to be a mom for awhile.
So Jake and I were talking a few weeks ago and somehow the idea of doing one of those second degree nursing programs came up. I would love to work part-time once my kids are not babies anymore but still not adults and I think that would be easier to do with nursing than in an adoption agency. But I really just want kids when we graduate and I don't want to do another 2 years of school. The choices! Now pretty much every job I hear about sounds interesting. It's annoying. I have NO idea what I want to do...besides someday have kids and stay home with them. Being an adult stinks sometimes...
Enough whining though...school's done in exactly a week for me! Then I'm a senior. Weirrrrd.