I'm 37 weeks today...no more procardia (medication to stop contractions) for me. I think I've been in early labor for a least a week...I've started dilating and thinning out and the contractions definitely aren't those painless Braxton Hicks anymore...they feel like my chest is closing up and make it hard to breathe at times.
My appointment yesterday went well but my midwife wants me to come back for an ultrasound on Tuesday. When I first started going there I was disappointed because they told me I would only have one ultrasound around 20 weeks unless medically necessary. I've had 2 more since then, one because my stomach was measuring smaller than it should have and one because my first NST was non-reactive. They checked the baby's size at the first one of these and she was measuring right one track with my due date. At my appointment yesterday, my midwife measured my stomach and then asked me if we had done an ultrasound to check her size and make sure she's doing ok and I said not since the end of the second trimester. She didn't say specifically why she wanted it done but she wants to check her size and my amniotic fluid.
I was happy at first so I didn't question it. A fourth ultrasound when I thought I'd only get one! Another chance to see my baby and how she's developing. And Jake's going to try and take a half day so he can spend the afternoon with me! However, as I was leaving the office, the over thinking started. As I was leaving I realized she didn't tell me what my stomach was measuring and she has every other time. Does she think Adelyn is too big or too small? If she's too big will they induce me soon? If she's too small does that mean there's something wrong with her that's causing her to not grow? I haven't put on any weight since my appt at 33 weeks and it's now 4 weeks later....is Adelyn not gaining weight? And now I have to wait until Tuesday to find out. I'm trying to just relax and trust that if she thought something life threatening was wrong that she would have sent me for an ultrasound right away. Maybe she's just doing this to ease my mind because I brought up how some people say because my stomach is so small that I must be having a small baby and other people say they were really small, too and then had a 9-10 pound baby. Maybe she's just being safe rather than sorry.
Either way, I would really appreciate prayers. Prayers for Adelyn's health. Prayers for a safe and healthy delivery. Prayers for my over active mind to be at peace this weekend. I'm just so ready to meet her and for unexpected things to not pop up anymore. But I'm starting to realize that parenting is just a life full of the unexpected. Things will never go according to my plans again (not that they ever did before...God has a way of having better plans for me). I won't feel this calm peaceful feeling that she's ok once she's finally here...I don't think I'll ever be able to not worry about her again. And that's where the prayers come in :)
Happy Easter weekend to everyone! I'll either be spending mine with family and house hunting or in the hospital having a baby :) Take time to remember all that Christ has done for YOU...and He would have done it for ONLY YOU! How can I even think to worry and not trust Him with my life and my daughter's life when He gave His life for me!