Monday, November 28, 2011

Running, Winter, and Random Thoughts

So this is going to be a completely random post. Sorry. Last night, I was reminiscing about a lot of childhood memories, like my cousins teaching me how to ride a bike, going on fly hunts with my dad and sister, reading books with my mom, etc. and then I started going through my Christmas ornaments. Which led to me tearing apart my room to find old journals and things that I've forgotten about. I'm so nostalgic, it's ridiculous. And as I was going through this stuff I realized I'm missing a journal that we had to keep in my freshman year English class, which makes me sad because I feel like I've lost a lot of memories.  So I guess that made me feel guilty about not blogging as much and keeping my thoughts in a more permanent place than my head...all I can say is I hope my children as nostalgic reminiscers, too, because they're going to hate me if they aren't.

Random thought number 1: I have a giant love/hate relationship with running. I had to run a mile this morning for one of my classes to see if our time improved throughout the semester. I dreaded it. Some days running feels SO good and other days I'm pretty sure I'm dying. Today was a good day, thankfully. I dropped a minute and 43 seconds off my time throughout the semester which is pretty awesome considering I only ran 3 times in between. But I realized that running is the only thing that can make me feel good about myself while feeling so physically horrible.  I got done running and my legs felt fine and my breathing was fairly under control but my throat was SO dry and it felt like all the blood was pumping into my head and my fingers were all tingly. My stomach muscles felt like they were going to involuntarily contract and make me vomit even though I didn't feel nauseous. Gross. But running just makes you feel so good...especially when you drop time. It's weird.

Random thought number 2: Another love/hate relationship: WINTER. Today's weather was straight up NASTY. We've had rain, snow, and ice show up today. Sick. But I spent the evening inside with a blanket, my husband, hot chocolate topped with peppermint whipped cream, and some Christmas music. You can't spend an evening like that in July...it just doesn't feel the same. So as much as I despise cold weather, it lets me have amazing nights like tonight. If only I never had to go out in the cold and snow.....

Random thought number 3: I'm really really ready for school to be done but I'm also really nervous about it. We have no idea where we're going, what we're going to do, if grad school is in the picture or not, when kids will enter the picture...you get the idea.  We are trying to follow God's plan for us and go where He's leading us but it's so hard to tell sometimes what's His plan and what's our own selfish plan. I just want a set path like in the board game Life. That'd be ok with me :) Plus I love that game.

Random thought number 4: Now that it's cold, our kitty is so much more cuddly.  He's been following me around the apartment all day just wanting to curl up with me under a blanket. So cute :)

Random thought number 5: Jake just put cinnamon rolls in the oven...and they smell delish. We're now debating what the best smells are that come from the kitchen. He says cinnamon rolls are in the top 5. I'm unsure about that.

That's all for now I guess. I'm ready for Christmas break to be here for surrrrrre.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Confession Friday

Long time, no blogging. I just have NOTHING interesting to blog about. But I figure I should try to keep up with this every once in a while.  So...the best I got is a confession friday.

I confess that I love the show New Girl. I laugh about every 30 seconds...although that may not be because it's funny. Apparently I laugh a lot.

I confess that I really just want to spend a day watching the Disney Princess classics. However, I have none. Boo :( Youtube time perhaps.

I confess that watching the leaves fall made me so happy the other day.  I was driving to class and there was a downpour of brown, yellow, orange, and red leaves all around my car in the middle of the road. I was in love.

I confess that I'm getting to be rather apathetic about school. Senioritis needs to go away for a few more months. It seems a little unacceptable this early on.

I confess that there are SIX couples in our sunday school class that are expecting. Jake and I are one of like three or four couples who do not have children and/or who are not expecting. Buhh..it's making the baby fever come back in full swing. I just want a little warm baby to cuddle with :( that's too much to ask for I guess.

I confess that I've been craving gummy worms, suckers, gobstoppers, etc. a lot lately. And pizza. And fast food. Ughhhh. I'm avoiding lunch right now because I know my only options are a sandwich or leftover chili. Boo.  I'm really craving some taco bell or something.

I confess that Jake works a lot this weekend and my plans consist of a bunch of nothingness.  Which is kind of nice every once in awhile.

Ok my back hurts and my tummy is grumbling. Time to go scrounge I guess.

Monday, October 17, 2011

Highlights and Downsides

So...long time, no blog huh? It's been like a month...I honestly don't know if I can remember much of what happened in the past week let alone the last month but I'll try to wrap it up real quick.

Highlights:

- Going home 2 weekends in a row :)

- Angie's bridal shower

- Finding a place in town to get my hair cut so I can actually go get it trimmed when I'm supposed to instead of trying to squeeze in appointments when I'm home

- Angie came over and dyed my hair a few nights ago :) I love it

- Going home and getting cheesecake, pumpkin pie, pecan pie, green bean casserole, potato casserole, turkey, tons of leftovers to bring home. Jake and I have the best moms ever :) we so spoiled!

- Jake made a funny face one night while we were home and Pam (MIL) and I both said "What is your problem?" at the same time in the same tone of voice. This may be a downside to some of you but we all thought it was hilarious. Love my MIL :)

- Seeing how big Luna has gotten...and the fact that her favorite toy is a rock that she chews on. Luna is a dog...not a child...just to clarify.

- Seeing family!! I've missed them all so much.

- Going apple picking, getting pumpkins, and frozen custard. It was beautiful weather, too. Good memories were made :) and I'm making an apple crisp....or 7....sometime soon. We have apples galore.

- Jake and I may finally have some kind of plan for what we're doing once we graduate. I still pray about it a LOT but unless the Lord shuts those doors I think we know what we're going to do.  More on that when we have some finalized plans...they may shock all of you. And I'm not ready to deal with everyone's questioning and criticism again so...there.

- I got to take a super long way home a few weekends ago and I drove through my home town and past my 2 childhood houses.  Good memories but the changes I saw in both places always unsettles me. But then I realized how amazing it is that God is always the same and never changing. So comforting!

Downsides:

- When I go home I get zero homework done which leads to me being stressed....as you can see I'm ignoring it all by blogging.

- Two of my classes next semester are at the same time and I need them both to graduate. I have one semester left....let me get out unscathed pleaseeeee.

- We aren't going home again until Thanksgiving :(

- My plans for after graduation may very well involve 2-4 more years of schooling....and I thought I was done :( Maybe I secretly enjoy school and being a student....then again...maybe not.

- I got really lightheaded this morning in aerobics and my heart was racing so she made me walk around the room while everyone else did circuit training until my pulse went back down to normal. Talk about embarrassing. I skipped my next class and just went home to start in on the homework.

- I have laundry to fold....which means I really need to get off here. Yay for having more highlights than downsides :)

Friday, September 9, 2011

Confession Friday

I have no lead up to this post...so we'll just get to it. Haha.

I confess that I'm so sore. I had an aerobics class Wednesday morning and we did circuit training. I'm pretty sure she's trying to kill us. My abs and butt hurt so bad that I had to roll out of bed this morning (which still hurt) and I walk like I have a stick stuck up my butt because I can't walk normally. Ughhh.

I confess that my itunes is playing Third Day music and it's making me happy :)

I confess that I just looked over at Nigel absolutely passed out next to me on the couch and got a little jealous. Jake and I were talking the other night about how he has no worries, bills, or problems and the only thing that really sucked for him was no pizza in his diet.

I confess that I declared a 3-day weekend for myself. Having only one class on Fridays is already starting to be problematic.  When the time it takes me to drive there and back is almost as long as the class time itself, I'm not real motivated :/

I confess that I ate chips and salsa for dinner last night and then watched An Affair to Remember (add it to my list of favorite old movies!) while eating ice cream. In sweat pants. Typical girl move? Yes.

I confess that we've been able to have our windows and patio door open since Sunday and I'm LOVING it. I'm kind of cold right now which is amazing considering a week ago it was like 1249083409 degrees outside.

I confess that I already have like 6 baby names picked out. They change a little bit every once in a while but I'm sticking to them for the most part...now we just need to get this school thing out of the way and find jobs so that there can be babies to name!

I confess that I made Jake another batch of rolo cookies Wednesday night at his request because of his bad day at work....and they are almost gone. Once Hanna gets here tonight (she's staying for the weekend!) I know they'll be gone for sure.

I confess that I need to vacuum the guest bedroom, read a little bit of homework, and work on my resource binder but instead I have 3 facebook tabs open and I'm blogging. Ohhhhhh the life of a college student.

Leave some of your confessions! Then I can read them and procrastinate some more!

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Thankful Thursday

It's been a rough stretch lately and I've been super side-tracked and probably a big old complainer...so it's time for one of these posts to remind me of how good I have it!

I'm thankful for my amazing, hard-working husband.  He is seriously just about the only person who keeps me sane some days.  He is so understanding and compassionate and I don't know how or why I got to be blessed with him as my husband.  All women should wait for a man like him :) I may be just a little biased but he really is the greatest.

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time He may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on Him, because He cares for you." - 1 Peter 5:6&7  - I'm so thankful for these verses. It's been a rough few weeks with Jake's new job and things are getting pretty tight around here but the Lord is such a great comforter.  Cast all my anxieties on Him because He cares for me is a phrase that has been running through my head quite a bit lately.  God is the ultimate provider and I know He will provide us with our needs. It's such a blessing to not have to worry about how we're going to pay bills or this or that when money gets tight because He has always come through in the past and He is faithful!

I'm thankful for my classes and the ability to further my education.  One of my classes is spending about 7 hours a week at an adult center for adults with developmental disabilities.  They are honestly some of the sweetest people I've ever met and I'm thankful God has put them in my life. They teach me so much about so many things.  I get several hugs a day with people telling me "I like you!" or "You're my buddy/friend!" or "I like your shirt/hair/rings/etc." It's so amazing. They have so much love to give :)

I'm thankful for having those friends that you know you can talk to about anything and their view of you won't change and they won't go blab it to anyone else.  The older I get, the more I realize what a blessing it is to have just one person like that in your life.  It's such a good feeling to know that no matter what, that person is ALWAYS going to be in your life!

I'm thankful for my family and my in-laws :) They are such a supportive group of people and I know they'll always be there for Jake and I.

I'm also thankful that we have food! Because I'm hungry! Lunch time for me :)

Friday, September 2, 2011

Confession Friday

I confess that this week went by quickly and slowly all at the same time...and I feel like it was jam-packed full of stuff but I can't honestly remember a single thing I did. Besides Jake and I going over to Eric and Hannah's apartment to eat ice cream with them :)

I confess that I was happier than I've been in a long time just sitting with my husband, my best friend, and her husband at their apartment eating DQ. Just catching up on life. I love the fact that Hannah and I can catch up and rant while Jake and Eric play words with friends and have absurd conversations broken up by the fact that they're too distracted by the tv to have a fluid conversation. I will never understand how males function. But it makes me so happy to have "couple friends", especially since Jake and Eric are good friends on their own and Hannah and I are like the exact same person and bestest friends on our own :) It's so nice to all be good friends individually and as a couple. This probably makes no sense....I'm rambling.

I confess that I'm working my way through all the music on my itunes alphabetically by artist because I'm OCD and I got to The Spill Canvas the other day and remembered just how much I love that band. I love rediscovering my favorite music.

I confess that I think my husband is the absolute best husband ever and I can't wait to have children with him so he can be the absolute best father to them. He really is the greatest.

I confess this week has been an emotional one.  Boo.  It's so frustrating to wish you could go back and erase something completely from your life but then realize if you did that you wouldn't be where you are now. Gotta take the good with the bad I suppose. And God obviously had a purpose for it all...I just wish things could've turned out this way without all the hurt and complications.

I confess that the baby fever I blogged about a while ago (I think...maybe that's in my imagination) has NOT gone away.  I feel like everywhere I turn someone has kids, just had a baby, or just found out their pregnant. I want it to be my turrrrrrrrn! The Lord is teaching me patience lately...that's for sure.

I confess that I feel like it's the sweetest thing ever when Nigel(our cat) decides to be affectionate. Every day when I walk through the door he's waiting right in front of it so it's hard for me to even get in the door around him. He instantly is purring and just wants to be loved on. He also likes to cuddle up with me under the blankets when the AC turns on...because the air blows out at like 50 degrees and we freeze. He's the most affectionate cat I've ever met and I'm glad he's ours.

I confess that last confession is the reason I need children.  That kind of love for a child is normal...for a cat....it is creepy. Ughhhhhh.

I confess I was an unhappy little lady when the maintenance man for our apartment complex pounded on our door at 7:30 this morning to change the AC filter.  Jake and I were finally getting to sleep in (until 8:30....woohoo!) today and he ruined it. All for a 5 second change....7:30am seems a BIT absurd dude. Thanks for waking us up.  Jake fell back asleep almost instantly and I eventually did around the time his alarm should have been going off.  It never went off so we woke up at 9:05...good thing it was just set so Jake could work out and not for going to class or work or something!

I confess I can't handle this heat.  I have a nice 4-day weekend (score!) and it would be a really good time to go run errands or something but I do NOT want to leave my cool-ish apartment to face the sweltering heat. Yuck.

I confess that I'm way procrastinating on the homework that I need to get done today. I want it out of the way but I know it's at least 2 hours of work that I don't really want to do right now...buhhh.

Any confessions from you guys? Have a great long weekend!

Thursday, August 25, 2011

School Blues

Ok so it's not really that bad...I just couldn't think of a title for this post.  I figured I should post some kind of school update since I'm such a boring blogger lately and school is about the only thing interesting that I have going right now...besides Nigel bahaha.

I'm taking 13 hours this semester consisting of aerobics, adult life skills, a practicum at an adult day care for adults with developmental disabilities, family and community resource class, and child welfare.  Surprisingly, aerobics is going to be the hardest from what I've heard/experienced.  I usually do not sweat except for my armpits...I've never been a face, leg, chest, back sweater.  Yesterday in aerobics we were just doing some testing to see where we were at so that she can grade us on improvement. Holy. Cow. Between that class and then hiking for 10 minutes all around campus in the ridiculous heat and up 4 flights of stairs, it's needless to say I was dripping by my next class. Ewww.  Fortunately, it wasn't stinky sweat...from what I could tell at least...too much info?  I'm looking forward to getting in shape for the first time since high school, though!  Yesterday, I also went to an abs and butt class and the yoga group fitness classes at the rec.  Jake met up with me after those classes and we ran half a mile.  I'm trying to get up to jogging a mile without stopping before we have to do it in aerobics on Monday....we'll see....

My other classes don't seem terrible.  The community resources class is going to be a LOT of work.  We have to do all these different assignments finding types of community resources and then by the end of semester we have to turn in a binder with 200 different agencies that could be resources for our clients when we graduate. Buhhhh.

I also have child welfare with a teacher I had last semester and I'm dreading it.  She doesn't allow excused absences....at all. And I'm just leaving it there.  I just typed out a whole rant and then deleted it...not worth getting all worked up over again.  Basically I spent all night in the ER and had a note from a doctor saying do NOT go to class or work for 2 days and she still wouldn't let me make up anything.  She told us even if our grandma dies or we're in the hospital, we can't make up anything we miss.  So I'm kind of dreading having her once a week for a 3 hour long class.  If I miss one day, I miss an entire week's worth of stuff...hope I don't get sick at all....

Between classes, homework, working out, and trying to stay on top of keeping this apartment clean, it's going to be a busy semester.  Busy is good though...it makes it go by more quickly.  9 months from now I'll be a graduate for all of about 2 weeks! Eeeeep!